16. I am extremely turned on by the look of shiny things on skin. Not turned on in the sense that I want my clothes ripped off but it makes me very aware of that person or myself or whoever. Things, particularly the collar bone area, look so much cuter and light-ish when there is jewelry and i love it a lot. You might need to be in my head to understand.
17. Sometimes when im by myself I put my headphones on and turn up the music as loud as I can possibly stand it, close my eyes, and pretend like I am somewhere else. The feeling of music surrounding me, even if I cant actually be surrounded by it, makes me feel like im alive but dead at the same time.
18. I have had this Winnie The Pooh pencil since 10th grade.
19. Damn, I do not understand anything.
20. People tend to think I am extremely sensitive and quiet and sweet but I think they are all wrong in a way. I take criticism well and think its all very good and constructive, so tell me how you feel and I will have a huge amount of respect for your honesty. Im quiet most of the time but I rant a lot. and actually, I do strive to be a nice person so that is alright.
21. "Going to sleep" encompasses so many things besides actual sleep. It usually takes at least an hour for me to fall asleep because that is the one time during the day where everything is quiet and dark and i can just think about stupid stuff. Plus, I have to find the cold spots.
22. The girl in high school that made me want to get my eyebrow pierced and grow my hair long was really beautiful. The boy in high school that I had the biggest crush on would always eat Goldfish at lunch and was really beautiful. When I was 17 they got married and my heart exploded (the bad way).
23. When I was little I used to stay at my grandmas and she would come in and lay with me and tell me the most ridiculous stories about whatever I wanted, most of the time they were about animals. I looked forward to those stories more than the food, especially the fish ones. Before the stories though we would watch the Hoosier Lottery and Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman or whatever it was called. Strangely, those were probably the best times of my life.
24. I am that bitch that finds total entertainment and pleasure in watching the pain of others. I mean the kind of you pain where you totally try to save yourself only to eventually fall on your ass or flip over your bicycle or run into a wall or get hit by a door.
25. Most of all, I would really like to say "I will always love you" but then you will just think of Whitney Houston instead of me.
Thursday, January 29
Tuesday, January 27
you might be totally uninterested.
Today I saw this list that was a 25 Random Things list that someone posted about themselves and considering I have absolutely nothing better to do besides you here I go:
1. If you must fucking smoke, do not fucking blow it in my face. Waiting for the bus today a guy walked by me and turned his lips so it was went into my eyes and it made them burn. Another girl said "thanks! fucking douchebag." and I kind of fell in love with her for a second.
2. I took the most wonderful walk through the woods today walking from class and didn't even realize how good it was until after the fact. It snowed a bunch last night and it had started to freeze rain so there was snow on the tree branches and the rain was making this light patting sound. I stopped walking and just stood there and had this whole life lesson kind of thing because I realized that I let way too many things make me unhappy all the time. I choose to blame everyone else for my unhappiness when really, it's my fault that I let those people bother me. I say this in the hope that whenever I am pissed off because someone was just a douche for whatever reason I don't let it bother me when really, I dont think im capable of that. That's okay though, because something so small like a walk or a "I love you" can take it away ten fold.
3. There are many things in my life that I regret not doing, but all the things in my life now have been put into place because of what I have not done. I really am going to try and not think about every little thing in the future though, because it makes some things miserable. things, things, things.
4. Some pain is actually a very good thing. Don't think im a hard ass BY ANY MEANS or some kind of bitch but really, it hurts so good i got a soregasm, right?
5. I really, really, really love having deep conversations. They are especially good when you find out something so surprising about someone that you would have never ever known if you didn't have that conversation, whatever it be about and then later you go back over it and feel like it was a one shot in hell kind of situation. Plus, it builds trust and trust is a very comforting thing that most of us wish we had more of.
6. This list is going to be very long. 25 is a lot even though my brain is absolutely full of the most fascinating topics. totally kidding.
7. Anticipating something that you have wanted for so long, and realizing that you are actually going to get it soon is fantastic. You can interpret that however you want, but if you really knew me you would know exactly what I was talking about.
8. I would fall head over heels in love with any boy that cooked for me. Im not the only one either I know it so boil the water, slice the potatoes, and GET NAKED, please.
9. I used to wake up at 5 every morning in elementary school to watch Beetlejuice. That show was fucking ridiculous and I miss it so much.
10. February might be one of my favorite months, because it is so strange.
11. I love dark colors. Dark red, dark blue, black (dont even), dark purple...but not dark green or brown or anything because they look like ass.
12. Dear boys, look like anyone else and you wont be noticed and I will never think you are special. But if you have really really nice jeans that actually fit your ass or a silver jacket or some yellow pants or a tattoo that is half hidden when you sit in front of me I will be extremely intrigued and will likely remember you and think about you a lot.
13. I would do almost anything to have my Skip-It back. I suppose I could just buy another one though.
14. I long to live in a city but at the same time at some point in my life I have to lie on a roof and yes, look at the stars. I know absolutely nothing about stars, but im hoping that whoever I am laying on the roof with can at least talk to me about how small and real they feel in that moment.
15. I hate Jello. I hate it a lot.
Im going to cut it off because I must take a nap. night night, love.
1. If you must fucking smoke, do not fucking blow it in my face. Waiting for the bus today a guy walked by me and turned his lips so it was went into my eyes and it made them burn. Another girl said "thanks! fucking douchebag." and I kind of fell in love with her for a second.
2. I took the most wonderful walk through the woods today walking from class and didn't even realize how good it was until after the fact. It snowed a bunch last night and it had started to freeze rain so there was snow on the tree branches and the rain was making this light patting sound. I stopped walking and just stood there and had this whole life lesson kind of thing because I realized that I let way too many things make me unhappy all the time. I choose to blame everyone else for my unhappiness when really, it's my fault that I let those people bother me. I say this in the hope that whenever I am pissed off because someone was just a douche for whatever reason I don't let it bother me when really, I dont think im capable of that. That's okay though, because something so small like a walk or a "I love you" can take it away ten fold.
3. There are many things in my life that I regret not doing, but all the things in my life now have been put into place because of what I have not done. I really am going to try and not think about every little thing in the future though, because it makes some things miserable. things, things, things.
4. Some pain is actually a very good thing. Don't think im a hard ass BY ANY MEANS or some kind of bitch but really, it hurts so good i got a soregasm, right?
5. I really, really, really love having deep conversations. They are especially good when you find out something so surprising about someone that you would have never ever known if you didn't have that conversation, whatever it be about and then later you go back over it and feel like it was a one shot in hell kind of situation. Plus, it builds trust and trust is a very comforting thing that most of us wish we had more of.
6. This list is going to be very long. 25 is a lot even though my brain is absolutely full of the most fascinating topics. totally kidding.
7. Anticipating something that you have wanted for so long, and realizing that you are actually going to get it soon is fantastic. You can interpret that however you want, but if you really knew me you would know exactly what I was talking about.
8. I would fall head over heels in love with any boy that cooked for me. Im not the only one either I know it so boil the water, slice the potatoes, and GET NAKED, please.
9. I used to wake up at 5 every morning in elementary school to watch Beetlejuice. That show was fucking ridiculous and I miss it so much.
10. February might be one of my favorite months, because it is so strange.
11. I love dark colors. Dark red, dark blue, black (dont even), dark purple...but not dark green or brown or anything because they look like ass.
12. Dear boys, look like anyone else and you wont be noticed and I will never think you are special. But if you have really really nice jeans that actually fit your ass or a silver jacket or some yellow pants or a tattoo that is half hidden when you sit in front of me I will be extremely intrigued and will likely remember you and think about you a lot.
13. I would do almost anything to have my Skip-It back. I suppose I could just buy another one though.
14. I long to live in a city but at the same time at some point in my life I have to lie on a roof and yes, look at the stars. I know absolutely nothing about stars, but im hoping that whoever I am laying on the roof with can at least talk to me about how small and real they feel in that moment.
15. I hate Jello. I hate it a lot.
Im going to cut it off because I must take a nap. night night, love.
Saturday, January 24
Sometimes..
I only want to talk to you. No one else. I love our conversations. I love you.
I want you here. I want to just be with you. You can make this better.
Friday, January 23
Get the Fuck Up!
Having a bad day. Cant understand your roomates. Wake them up like tanisha. They cant understand her either.
Ksubi x Tiga
Tiga legendary dj from montreal is teaming up with Ksubi to create the most awsome glasses ever. These glasses will only be avalible at ksubi retailers. Only in Europe so check them out and try them on.
Monday, January 19
look.
i tried to make animals out of condoms once. it didn't work.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t5sTBrs4fhQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t5sTBrs4fhQ
Friday, January 16
in bed.
i love you because you light me up and make me laugh, and i love you because just your voice makes me feel better.
i love you because you are a good kind of mean.
i love you because we like our eggs the same way, you eat a lot, and you drink coffee.
i love you because you are that kind of girlie boy that is boyish that i have always wanted but could never ever find.
i love you because you love music and movies and the good things.
i love you because your smile is very contagious.
i love you because i can tell how you feel by the tone of your voice.
i love you because you are there when i need you.
but i hate you because you are not here with me when i want you here with me, which would be always.
i miss you a lot.
i love you because you are a good kind of mean.
i love you because we like our eggs the same way, you eat a lot, and you drink coffee.
i love you because you are that kind of girlie boy that is boyish that i have always wanted but could never ever find.
i love you because you love music and movies and the good things.
i love you because your smile is very contagious.
i love you because i can tell how you feel by the tone of your voice.
i love you because you are there when i need you.
but i hate you because you are not here with me when i want you here with me, which would be always.
i miss you a lot.
Thursday, January 15
my lab skills CAN come in handy!
It is negative something ridiculous outside. I threw a little fit inside my cocoon of warmness today because the wind just hated me.
I decided to be a wizard of cold because someone on the news did it so I got a glass of water and took it outside. You know how you throw water out of a cup onto the grass or whatever when you are emptying the cup? I did that and the water froze before it hit the ground and then broke into tiny pieces when it hit the snow and it was really cool. It didn't work with Coke or coffee but it made me really really happy.
As good as chapstick feels, whenever I have it on I feel dirty somehow. I feel as if i did something really sloppy (oh dear!) and forgot to wipe the sticky off. Its like "ooh...Cayla's lips are sticky I wonder what she has been doing."
My anthropology prof. told us today about how he spent a year of his life measuring monkey testes. He might be a cool guy, maybe not.
Megan Fox is ridiculously hotter than Jessica Biel, even though she is engaged to an ugly man. Hot girls have bad taste.
Crazy..
So after looking around I found Silly Thing, a Japan based label, has just launched so rags at Colette. So if your in France....Kat...Check it out it will be worth your while.
Hot or Not
Wednesday, January 14
Uno Momento...
Okay so this is the first of many. I decided that I need to let Kat know about her country of residence. I wanted to live vicariously through her. Ugh I want to live in France. I envy you. Anyway....
This is also about Cayla. She's my wife (to be),maybe. She loves everything thats why I love her. She is open to change and will take my criticizim. Which I know can be hard. She plus him thats what we are.
Yes like the band. Did anyone ever notice that Katy Perry looks like her.
Ok so cool new stuff to blog about! YAY!
So I love Stephen Sprouse since way before Marc Jacobs, but Marc Jacobs knows him personaly. You got me there Marc. Jerk.
The Louis Vuitton/Stephen Sprouse collection is amazing. If you have money to blow buy something. Personally I love the Bangles. I would totally rock those then tell personal shopper to shove it.
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