you might be totally uninterested.

Today I saw this list that was a 25 Random Things list that someone posted about themselves and considering I have absolutely nothing better to do besides you here I go:

1. If you must fucking smoke, do not fucking blow it in my face. Waiting for the bus today a guy walked by me and turned his lips so it was went into my eyes and it made them burn. Another girl said "thanks! fucking douchebag." and I kind of fell in love with her for a second.

2. I took the most wonderful walk through the woods today walking from class and didn't even realize how good it was until after the fact. It snowed a bunch last night and it had started to freeze rain so there was snow on the tree branches and the rain was making this light patting sound. I stopped walking and just stood there and had this whole life lesson kind of thing because I realized that I let way too many things make me unhappy all the time. I choose to blame everyone else for my unhappiness when really, it's my fault that I let those people bother me. I say this in the hope that whenever I am pissed off because someone was just a douche for whatever reason I don't let it bother me when really, I dont think im capable of that. That's okay though, because something so small like a walk or a "I love you" can take it away ten fold.

3. There are many things in my life that I regret not doing, but all the things in my life now have been put into place because of what I have not done. I really am going to try and not think about every little thing in the future though, because it makes some things miserable. things, things, things.

4. Some pain is actually a very good thing. Don't think im a hard ass BY ANY MEANS or some kind of bitch but really, it hurts so good i got a soregasm, right?

5. I really, really, really love having deep conversations. They are especially good when you find out something so surprising about someone that you would have never ever known if you didn't have that conversation, whatever it be about and then later you go back over it and feel like it was a one shot in hell kind of situation. Plus, it builds trust and trust is a very comforting thing that most of us wish we had more of.

6. This list is going to be very long. 25 is a lot even though my brain is absolutely full of the most fascinating topics. totally kidding.

7. Anticipating something that you have wanted for so long, and realizing that you are actually going to get it soon is fantastic. You can interpret that however you want, but if you really knew me you would know exactly what I was talking about.

8. I would fall head over heels in love with any boy that cooked for me. Im not the only one either I know it so boil the water, slice the potatoes, and GET NAKED, please.

9. I used to wake up at 5 every morning in elementary school to watch Beetlejuice. That show was fucking ridiculous and I miss it so much.

10. February might be one of my favorite months, because it is so strange.

11. I love dark colors. Dark red, dark blue, black (dont even), dark purple...but not dark green or brown or anything because they look like ass.

12. Dear boys, look like anyone else and you wont be noticed and I will never think you are special. But if you have really really nice jeans that actually fit your ass or a silver jacket or some yellow pants or a tattoo that is half hidden when you sit in front of me I will be extremely intrigued and will likely remember you and think about you a lot.

13. I would do almost anything to have my Skip-It back. I suppose I could just buy another one though.

14. I long to live in a city but at the same time at some point in my life I have to lie on a roof and yes, look at the stars. I know absolutely nothing about stars, but im hoping that whoever I am laying on the roof with can at least talk to me about how small and real they feel in that moment.

15. I hate Jello. I hate it a lot.

Im going to cut it off because I must take a nap. night night, love.