so this is like a shot in the dark.

I don't want you to think that im crazy jealous or anything. I would normally keep this to myself and not write it in a blog because quite frankly, it is lame. But also quite frankly, I don't give a shit...because I am a hot mess.

I want you to be happy because I like you the most when you are happy so I don't exactly know why im so weird, I think its because you don't seem excited about anything pertaining to seeing me? because you are just thinking about lady gaga and bloc party and jeans? I feel unimportant most of the time because I am so far away...and I get that you have a life that is more than me as it should be, but I want some lovin'. I get freaked out because I love you so much and I dont want you to think that I am crazy so i dont like to talk to you about certain things...Im just lonely, really lonely, and I wish I was with you. If you could ever do anything to make me happy it would be proving Cecilia wrong as hell. That's all.